Seeking Safety as a Black Woman in New Cities

I have moved three times in the past 13 months. My academic career-climbing has propelled me across the country from my longtime residence near Washington, D.C., to the Dallas鈥揊ort Worth metro area, followed by a brief return to living New York City鈥揳djacent. Now that I鈥檝e finally secured a coveted tenure-track job, I have landed in upstate New York鈥擲yracuse, to be precise. With each new move, I think about my safety as a young Black woman living on her own. The first rule is to never look too out of place; my vigilance is heightened in areas where I know I look like I don鈥檛 belong. 鈥淏elonging鈥� is a complex concept, but I try to stay in areas that have rich diversity, from race and ethnicity to age, dress, and gender identity.

When I first began looking for an apartment in my new city, an older, white woman realtor was recommended to me. With her best intentions, she shuttled me and my mother around Syracuse鈥檚 white suburbs鈥搃gnoring my demands to see whatever apartments the downtown area might offer. Syracuse, like many cities across the United States, is in the midst of a gentrification process. For older, white Americans who left the 鈥渋nner city鈥� decades ago, downtown still connotes the remnants of that history and populace鈥攁 dangerous milieu of working poor and unhoused individuals. And housing insecurity does plague my new city; I am struck by the number of people I see wandering the streets in this snowy, frigid climate. While I鈥檝e lived in large cities with sizable homeless populations before, this moment feels different. As a Black woman college professor, who has opted to live in overpriced apartments just a block or two from the rescue mission鈥擨 have to think about my own complex and intersectional identity. As I adapt to this new space, I ask myself: What does allyship look like while protecting my own safety?

As the United States continues its attempt to diversify historically white professions, we must also diversify our communities and community solutions.

I am faced with dire statistics: More than experience rape in their lifetime, and in 2019 Black women accounted for in single-victim/single-offender situations. More broadly, Black Americans make up the of gun violence victims in the U.S. From 2019鈥�2021, gun homicide rates of Black girls and women rose 78%.

Less than one month after moving into my Syracuse apartment, I pulled into the lower dungeon of my building鈥檚 parking garage (which I pay a $98 monthly premium to access). In the last available parking spot, there was a white man, rocking back and forth, surrounded by his possessions. I had seen his belongings before, and suspected someone had claimed the corner by the staircase landing as their home. Leaving the garage at night always makes me nervous鈥攖he gray cement staircase and tiny elevator feel claustrophobic and would be difficult to escape an assailant from. I made a habit of mapping out an exit strategy before exiting my car. This time I didn鈥檛 strategize at all; I just reacted. I expeditiously reversed my car and drove back up from the basement to the ground floor, hurriedly parking in a 鈥渕anagement only鈥� spot in view of the entrance鈥攖he unoccupied tollbooth at the entry gate taunting me.

Cognitively, I know those without shelter are often stigmatized as dangerous and bad; these things are not necessarily true. I recognize that I am privileged in this equation; I have always had a place to call home and food to eat. Even when my parents divorced, my mother and I lived with my grandmother in her two-bedroom apartment until we got an apartment of our own a year later. Now, I have decent employment, a car, and a garage to house said car. I am new to this city. I couldn鈥檛 begin to imagine what this man was experiencing. For all I knew, this man had lived in Syracuse his whole life鈥攔egularly and reliably failed by its institutions. Who was I to say where he could and couldn鈥檛 lay his head to rest at night? I emailed my apartment building鈥檚 management to make them aware of the situation and hoped they wouldn鈥檛 take any extreme actions. While I was afraid, I didn鈥檛 want any harm to come to this man.

Garage management suggested I call the police if I ever felt unsafe. In the wake of George Floyd, Elijah McClain, and countless other cases of police brutality, that did not feel reassuring. And Black women are not afforded the same protection from the police as white women鈥攋ust ask Breonna Taylor, Rekia Boyd, Sandra Bland, and, again, countless others. The management company representative explained that the man I saw had schizophrenia, and she was trying to help him move back in with his mother and return to treatment. She also shared that he, Paul, was a 鈥済ood one,鈥� but warned me that there were two 鈥渂ad ones鈥� also living in the garage. I didn鈥檛 ask what differentiated good from bad, but I figured I would take her word for it. I was told because the police shouldn鈥檛 harm unhoused people鈥攋ust tell them to leave. But still, engaging with cops unsettles me. Calling the police would not guarantee more safety for me or Paul.

No matter where you go in this country鈥攏orth, south, east, or west鈥攖he desperate need for structural community investment remains the same.

Speaking with some Black women I met at an event shortly after this incident, I was discouraged from calling 911. 鈥淵ou never know what kind of response you鈥檒l get,鈥� was the consensus. One woman recommended I call a different crisis number that connects callers to non-police responders. I wished such a number had been available during another encounter I鈥檇 had a few months earlier. On my last day living in Fort Worth, I cradled my dying phone while waiting for a Lyft to pick me up. A young, disheveled-looking Black man came up to me, seeming to offer his water bottle. I told him 鈥渘o thank you,鈥� and crossed to the other side of the street. He began thrusting his arm out and pouring water in different spots in front him. He crossed over to where I was, but I quickly crossed back to my original side of the street. We switched sides again, zigzagging across the road. I wanted, needed the street to keep us separate. I breathed a sigh of relief when he finally walked down the block. But a few short minutes later, I saw several cops gathered in the area. There was the same young Black man, now lying face down in the middle of an intersection, with an officer鈥檚 knee digging into his back. The image upset me, even though moments before I had feared for my own safety from this same man. I wondered whether the knee hurt him. I asked a nearby man what happened.鈥淭hat man hit one of my hotel guests in the face!鈥� he exclaimed. My jaw dropped; that easily could have been me. My sidewalk crisscrossing antics had been worthwhile. Although relieved that I escaped harm, I still felt a tinge of concern for this man; he had been carted off to the local jail, and who knew what awaited him there?

As the United States continues its attempt to diversify historically white professions, we must also diversify our communities and community solutions. Policing鈥攁n institution rooted in the 鈥攃annot be the solution for Black people鈥檚 safety. Certainly, policing cannot be the solution for the safety of Black women, who must navigate the line between white supremacist violence and its toxic violent byproducts that overwhelm the Black community. Too often, moving to a new city means survival in a space of racial marginalization and microaggressions, or assimilation into a community blighted by disenfranchisement, underemployment, poverty, violence, and crime. In both scenarios, you remain the interloper.

Investing in community safety and a world without police looks like offering social supports and eradicating poverty. It means universal health care, universal basic income, and guaranteed housing; it means affordable child care and better mental and maternal health services; it means diversion, violence interruption, and restorative justice programs; it means equitable education and growth-oriented jobs and careers. Our current haphazard, inchoate, piecemeal policy attempts are not enough. No matter where you go in this country鈥攏orth, south, east, or west鈥攖he desperate need for structural community investment remains the same.

Norell Edwards is a scholar, educator, and communications consultant for nonprofit organizations. Originally from New Rochelle, New York, she is now an assistant professor of English and the 75th Anniversary Endowed Professor at Le Moyne College in Syracuse, New York. Her work has been published in several peer-review journals and edited collections, as well as the LA Review of Books, Electric Literature, The Grio, and the Black Westchester. She is a board member for the Feminist Press, and she speaks English.

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